Spring Fever
June 13th, 2008The candle that started at Imbloc built to a zenith on Beltaine. It now recedes. Because, really… who wants a huge bonfire in the heat of summer? As I get older, I apprecate the cycles of time more and more. And how they affect me. I am at my most industrious in the fall. And at my most dream-like now in Spring. Looking back over the years, during those years that I’ve had something to distract me, I have stayed more grounded in the spring. During those that I don’t… I do very rash things, like up and join the Army.
2008: slowly going crazy
2007: April thru June: 2 trips home in 8 weeks, very distracting
2006: March and April: trying to get pregant. If that’s not a cure for spring fever, nothing is.
2005: April and May: Bought a house. Very distracting
2004: April thru June: Pregnant, alone… very bad time
2003: March: up and joined the Army
2002: May: Screw Juniata - dropped out of school.
So now it’s the middle of June and in my attempts to function on a daily basis, I feel like an old washing machine, going round and round the same routines until I rattle apart at the seams. What I WANT to be is a balloon, drifting up in the clouds to parts unknown. How many balloons does it take to lift a washing machine?